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finding that a little chainless bronze censer; set; upon the outside; with pieces of painted china by orazio fontana; which i had filled with antique amulets; had fallen upon its side and poured out its contents; i began to gather the amulets into the bowl; partly to collect my thoughts and partly with that habitual reverence which seemed to me the due of things so long connected with secret hopes and fears。 i see; said michael robartes; that you are still fond of incense; and i can show you an incense more precious than any you have ever seen; and as he spoke he took the censer out of my hand and put the amulets in a little heap between the athanor and the alembic。 i sat down; and he sat down at the side of the fire; and sat there for awhile looking into the fire; and holding the censer in his hand。 i have e to ask you something; he said; and the incense will fill the room; and our thoughts; with its sweet odour while we are talking。 i got it from an old man in syria; who said it was made from flowers; of one kind with the flowers that laid their heavy purple petals upon the hands and upon the hair and upon the feet of christ in the garden of gethsemane; and folded him in their heavy breath; until he cried against the cross and his destiny。 he shook some dust into the censer out of a small silk bag; and set the censer upon the floor and lit the dust which sent up a blue stream of smoke; that spread out over the ceiling; and flowed downwards again until it was like miltons banyan tree。 it filled me; as incense often does; with a faint sleepiness; so that i started when he said; i have e to ask you that question which i asked you in paris; and which you left paris rather than answer。
he had turned his eyes towards me; and i saw them glitter in the firelight; and through the incense; as i replied: you mean; will i bee an initiate of your order of the alchemical rose? i would not consent in paris; when i was full of unsatisfied desire; and now that i have at last fashioned my life according to my desire; am i likely to consent?
you have changed greatly since then; he answered。 i have read your books; and now i see you among all these images; and i understand you better than you do yourself; for i have been with many and many dreamers at the same cross?ways。 you have shut away the world and gathered the gods about you; and if you do not throw yourself at their feet; you will be always full of lassitude; and of wavering purpose; for a man must forget he is miserable in the bustle and noise of the multitude in this world and in time; or seek a mystical union with the multitude who govern this world and time。 and then he murmured something i could not hear; and as though to someone i could not see。
for a moment the room appeared to darken; as it used to do when he was about to perform some singular experiment; and in the darkness the peacocks upon the doors seemed to glow with a more intense colour。 i cast off the illusion; which was; i believe; merely caused by memory; and by the twilight of incense; for i would not acknowledge that he could overe my now mature intellect; and i said: even if i grant that i need a spiritual belief and some form of worship; why should i go to eleusis and not to calvary? he leaned forward and began speaking with a slightly rhythmical intonation; and as he spoke i had to struggle again with the shadow; as of some older night than the night of the sun; which began to dim the light of the candles and to blot out the little gleams upon the corner of picture? frames and on the bronze divinities; and to turn the blue of the incense to a heavy purple; while it left the peacocks to glimmer and glow as though each separate colour were a living spirit。 i had fallen into a profound dream?like reverie in which i heard him speaking as at a distance。 and yet there is no one who munes with only one god; he was saying; and the more a man lives in imagination and in a refined understanding; the more gods does he meet with and talk with; and the more does he e under the power of roland; who sounded in the valley of roncesvalles the last trumpet of the bodys will and pleasure; and of hamlet; who saw them perishing away; and sighed; and of faust; who looked for them up and down the world and could not find them; and under the power of all those countless divinities who have taken upon themselves spiritual bodies in the minds of the modern poets and romance writers; and under the power of the old divinities; who since the renaissance have won everything of their ancient worship except the sacrifice of birds and fishes; the fragrance of garlands and the smoke of incense。
the many think humanity made these divinities; and that it can unmake them again; but we who have seen them pass in rattling harness; and in soft robes; and heard them speak with articulate voices while we lay in deathlike trance; know that they are always making and unmaking humanity; which is indeed but the trembling of their lips。
he had stood up and begun to walk to and fro; and had bee in my waking dream a shuttle weaving an immense purple web whose folds had begun to fill the room。 the room seemed to have bee inexplicably silent; as though all but the web and the weaving were at an end in the world。 they have e to us; they have e to us; the voice began again; all that have ever been in your reverie; all that you have met with in books。 there is lear; his head still wet with the thunder?storm; and he laughs because you thought yourself an existence who are but a shadow; and him a shadow who is an eternal god; and there is beatrice; with her lips half parted in a smile; as though all the stars were about to pass away in a sigh of love; and there is the mother of the god of humility who cast so great a spell over men that they have tried to unpeople their hearts that he might reign alone; but she holds in her hand the rose whose every petal is a god; and there; o swiftly she es! is aphrodite under a twilight falling from the wings of numberless sparrows; and about her feet are the grey and white doves。 in the midst of my dream i saw him hold out his left arm and pass his right hand over it as though he stroked the wings of doves。 i made a violent effort which seemed almost to tear me in two; and said with forced determination: you would sweep me away into an indefinite world which fills me with terror; and yet a man is a great man just in so far as he can make his mind reflect everything with indifferent precision like a mirror。 i seemed to be perfectly master of myself; and went on; but more rapidly: i mand you to leave me at once; for your ideas and phantasies are but the illusions that creep like maggots into civilizations when they begin to decline; and into minds when they begin to decay。 i had grown suddenly angry; and seizing the alembic from the table; was about to rise and strike him with it; when the peacocks on the door behind him appeared to grow immense; and then the alembic fell from my fingers and i was drowned in a tide of green and blue and bronze feathers; and as i struggled hopelessly i heard a distant voice saying: our master avicenna has written that all life proceeds out of corruption。 the glittering feathers had now covered me pletely; and i knew that i had struggled for hundreds of years; and was conquered at last。 i was sinking into the depth when the green and blue and bronze that seemed to fill the world became a sea of flame and swept me away; and as i was swirled along i heard a voice over my head cry; the mirror is broken in two pieces; and another voice answer; the mirror is broken in four pieces; and a more distant voice cry with an exultant cry; the mirror is broken into numberless pieces; and then a multitude of pale hands were reaching towards me; and strange gentle faces bending above me; and half wailing and half caressing voices uttering words that were forgotten the moment they were spoken。 i was being lifted out of the tide of flame; and felt my memories; my hopes; my thoughts; my will; everything i held to be myself; melting away; then i seemed to rise through numberless panies of beings who were; i understood; in some way more certain than thought; each wrapped in his eternal moment; in the perfect lifti